My boyfriend and I made a list of new year goals about a week ago. And, of course, I feel extremely inspired to start all the new goals that I have written down. But, I remain hesitant about these goals because I never follow through with any of them. Even the non-new year goals. I’m surprised that I’m still working on this blog every week. Yes, I don’t post that much but, hey, at least I come back every week!

These goals feel even more serious though. The biggest one being that I lose 60 pounds by the end of 2020. Doesn’t sound too terrible right? Well, I have struggled with weight all my life. And these last two years, fat has been winning. Majorly. Did you catch the 60 pounds thing? That’s why I remain hesitant about the goal. I remember when I was younger and I would say, “This is the year! This is the year that I’m going to lose all the weight!” I would say that every year and every year it wouldn’t happen.

This year I want to lose the weight because I’m heading into an unhealthy lifestyle and I know that I need to change before I get way worse. That’s also why I gave myself to the end of the year. Because I can fail but also get back up again and not completely give it up.

Trying not to let myself focus too much on my weight, I have written down several other goals to keep my mind preoccupied! One of the first is to work on my writing. A goal that I’m extremely excited about. I want to build my blog but most importantly I want to start my career as a writer.

Whatever that may be. I’m thinking my own book of poetry! Maybe even some short stories. I’m not entirely sure. But I am sure that 2020 is full of mystery and possibilities. If I come face to face with them, I’ll take them head on.

Bye 2019.